TheXArts
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OK some would like to know how I make most of my art. Well, I wrote my own Photoshop plugin. It is fractal based, I always loved fractals. I wanted a way to use the mathematics on my own art. It took a lot of work and I had to find some open source codes to put it together. I am sorry to say It is not for sale. A painter would not sale his prized brush. But, if I were to find an adequate apprentice I might would teach them how to do it when I am old and gray. I have a totally new series I am working on now. I usually do about 30 images the same style then move on. Some people tell me "Your work looks a lot alike." All I say to them is these are the images I found that I liked best. I have 1.6 terabytes of art, and I only post a few at a time. At the moment I would like to be one of the top 5 digital artist on EBSQ and a Plus artist. What ever comes my way I will gladly accept.
And, yes we do get a bad name. Being mentally disabled is not fun, but we learn how to survive. I am one of the not so better off person with mental illnesses. I run the gamut of mental disabilities. I am also autistic just a little, I am great with numbers and I am going back to school soon to get my masters in physics. I just love knowing how things work. Even as a child I took every thing apart all my toys even the kitchen table (got in trouble for that one). By 6 I was fixing electronics and building my little science experiments. By 18 I had my Microsoft Certified System Engineer Certificate. By 20 I way teaching others never got my MCT though. But by my 21st birthday I started my first manic state, I was diagnosed Bipolar and I am a very rapid cycler its like one month awake the next month asleep. The I started loosing time and having hallucination, later diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Sizzo Affective disorder. And I am a bad OCDer I shower sometimes 15 times a day. And test my blood it the twenties a day. I am a diabetic too, type 1. But that's not bad It doesn't keep me awake at night the visions do. Everything you see that has a dark tone to it "a feeling" I had created while hallucinating. If I do not create every day I have sleep paralysis and cannot sleep at all. I see the demons or shadow people, you know what I am talking about if you see them too. They give me my best inspiration. One night I had a conversation With Lucifer. A very whimsical fellow and beauty beyond compare. I am not a Satanist nor do I condone those who are. But, many of my personalities are demonic and go by names of fallen angles or older religious deities. Its hard to explain this to anyone, even doctors have been very much afraid of what they have listened to me speak, well not really me but the others.
I try to help anyone with a mental disability, get the help they need. And tell them about medications, which I have been on over 50 different kinds over the past 4 years. When I go to a new Doctor they usually tell me they do not know "WHAT" I have nor do they accurately know how to treat me. Most of the time I am treated like a rabid animal, unclean, condemned. I have even made clergy men loss faith. I have studied everything from "Alister Crowley to Zen Taoism." People that see me nerve make eye contact with me. Think of a time when you felt a really bad vibe from and then add the bad feeling of being in a hospital. And that's what its like to be around me. I physically drain people. I do not mean to but its just that way.
But, I am not a bad guy. My family loves me more than life itself and I love all my family and friends enough to fight to the death for them. I have never hurt anyone but people always think I am going to. You could easily say I was born in the wrong time, I would fit in perfectly in the days of old. I am also part native American actually 1/16 on one side and one 4th on another. But you could nerve tell it by looking at me, I am one beast of a German. And compete in the Scottish Highland games, clan Mackenzie.
If you would like to know more now is the time to ask.
And yes you can call me Chris.
< Message edited by TheXArts -- 9/19/2005 2:57:44 AM >
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A formal intorduction. - 
RE: A formal intorduction. - 
More about me. - 
Include me in your nominees. I think you can do more than one.
its really low. I have no idea what to do.
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